In the following I will go through the consequences of ending your life prematurely.
Emotions can be very dark and heavy. They can trick people into doing things they otherwise would not have done. When huge emotions take over you lose conscious control of yourself.
Thought can amplify emotions as well as control them – if you are trained in watching your mind. This is also called meditation or mental hygiene.
Killing yourself is not a sin BUT it has consequences that reach further than you can possibly imagine!
An you might want to learn these consequences BEFORE you make big decisions involving your life.
Killing your self does not solve anything. It makes things worse. The first thing you will notice after ending your life is you will be isolated in the afterlife in a place that is sad, dark and lonely. In the first short time you will try to orient yourself to find out where you are and why your life did not end the way you hoped.
Killing your self makes everything much worse. Most people who kill themselves believe that their sufferings will end or that they stop existing and thus the pain will end.
Nothing could be further from the truth.
If you think your pain will stop when you die you are mistaken.
If you think everything will go black and stop you are mistaken.
If you think suicide is the solution to your dark emotional situation you are severely mistaken.
Your biggest challenge now is to try to contain your emotions. They will NOT disappear simply because you are dead! But you cannot contain your emotions without your body. Now they will be everywhere. You will feel much more overwhelmed by them now than when you were alive.
If your emotions were impossible to cope with and overshadowed you when you were alive, you will notice that without your body it gets many times worse! Your pain will be tenfold. Your grief will be tenfold. Your sorrow will be tenfold. If it was boredom that drove you here it will be tenfold.
After many, many years in this emotional turbulence you will either lose consciousness and fall a sleep and you won’t wake up until you are reborn OR you will stay conscious and be attracted to lights that will occur when the universe decides you had enough. These lights are from couples on earth making love and this will be your way out from here. A fresh start.
If you ever had any notions of hell – this is it! And we are all (more or less) born from this panic.
So escaping one hell just to wake up in another is simply the wheel of life. Love is the cure!
In the Movie Ground Hawk Day Bill Murray finds himself waking up every day at six o’clock and the day before repeats itself. This happens over and over and over.
Bill tries to change things, manipulate things and learn fantastic skills – everything in an attempt to impress and get Love from Andie MacDowell.
He also tries to escape the wheel of life by killing himself.
Only to discover that he still wakes up at six o’clock in the morning to a new repetition.
After repeating his life numerous times he finally discovers the truth. The only thing that will set him free from repeating the same life and the same mistakes day after day is Love. He wakes up!
Edge of Tomorrow
Edge of Tomorrow (Tom Cruise & Emily Blunt) is another brilliant and very precise movie about waking up from this repeated dream we call life. We see how they struggle life after life to get further and further and at last Tom Cruise wakes up from the dream in his helicopter to a much better and brighter world.
Like some of the big teachers today have seen, Tom and Emily also learns to see their repeating lives for what they are – learning by suffering. And in this case where they are more conscious than most others they also learn by experimenting.
The two very different ideas of a punishing God and a forgiving God emanates from situations like this. God doesn’t punish nor does he forgive. What he really does is giving you a new chance to learn and this can be seen as forgiveness.
Seen from a higher perspective time doesn’t exist. The only thing that exists is NOW. And the NOW exists for ever! So God has eternal patience with us.
But this is not all of it.
If you hurt anybody – living or dead – by killing yourself you will feel their pain on top of what you already are feeling.
After years of immense sufferings and pain in the dark valleys of the afterlife, you will fall asleep and after years of relaxation you will be born again. With the exact same challenges, you did not solve in your previous life.
The universe is patient. You will get another chance to make the right decision. And another and yet another.
Until you WAKE UP!
There is always someone somewhere that is saddened by your suicide. Always. You will also be reborn in their situation to feel and learn what you did to them.
You will be put in the same challenge over and over until you solve the riddle and chose the path of Love, Forgiveness and Enlightenment. You cannot escape. The patience of the Universe is eternal.
In other words – you will lose a few hundred years of time and make your sufferings ten times bigger and 100 times longer simply because you made a bad decision.
Chose Love. Chose from your heart. Chose to cope with your pain NOW.
The reason why the pain feels overwhelming is because it is bigger than you. The universe wants you to grow. Grow bigger than your pain.
It is relative. The bigger you are the smaller your pain is.
Yes, it takes time. But when you grow you will transform your pain to Love! You will become Wiser and even more Loving.
You will not even transform your own pain in the process. You will transform pain from our collective unconsciousness and the result is that YOU made the world a better place. Just by growing!
Celestine was born in Thailand one year after her three sisters who she didn’t know because her father didn’t know. Very early she showed signs of spiritual interests and her father wasn’t late to put her in a nearby monastery where she got proper training. She studied under the late Master Po (named after the river Po), who is said to be a reincarnation of Vimalamitra – the 26th of Padma Shambava’s 25 main disciples! His mission was to make his students go further than the master.